The Happiness Project

I’m in a really down place right now… Don’t think it could go worse to the point that today I am getting anxiety attacks. So in a gist what’s so wrong in my life right now is that I am in love 🙂 And no, before you guys start booing my guy thinking he gave me pain, it’s not at all that. It’s the typical Indian problems.
So here goes…..

I am in love with this wonderful guy. We actually met one fine weekend at a friend’s beach birthday party, fell in love ( believe it or not) at first sight and we just knew this was some magical collision. Neither one of us had come there expecting anything other than to have a little fun and get away from the boredom of regular life. So the trip of Pondicherry and Mahabalipuram via Chennai was planned. It was by best friend’s birthday and I wasn’t going to say no even though it was a whole bunch of strangers that I had never even heard of before.

So I land in Chennai and get intorduced to a bunch of really nice and varied kinds of people. I met all but one that night. He was the guy I think I was supposed to come there for. You see this friend of mine had time and again asked me to come down for her birthday and it never actually materialised until that year. And my love ( *happywinks*) had shifted to Chennai for work that year. Happy coincidence I must say. It was so damn funny the way we met, never thought things will catapult like that ever!

So the whole gang had reached my friends place bright and early as we had a long drive ahead. And I was the last one to get ready and he was the first to be ready but last to arrive. And it just so happened beautifully that I came out of the washroom and he was somehow standing at the entrance to the room. I swear to God we were starting at each other for a couple of minutes going whoooaa! Finally reality check and we gave each other sheepish smiles, shook hands, introduced and went about our business. But surely that wasn’t the end of things.

The minute we landed in Pondicherry we turned out to be only people not there to get high on anything. While people laughed at us for being goodie goodie, we had the best of times laughing at them while they monkeyed around in their trance states! We started bonding there while keeping our distance! And the night in Pondicherry ended with a lot of scream singing to old 90s hits till our throats we soar. Next up was Mahabs where the real fairy dust was sprinkled all over us!
So in mahabs we got this really lovely little place right which was bang on the beach! And here is where the moonlit beach walks and some red wine did a whole lot of magic. The first time we held hands under the moonlit sky is something we both will never forget. Not to mention listening the alien stories, that we laughed our asses off to, of a friend who was very very high the night before. This was a spectacular night especially since none of us slept as we shared ghost stories all night and waited for the sun to rise.( Did I mention I violated some really big turtles who were lying upside down trying to lay eggs. I thought I was saving them …my bad)


And that weekend gave rise to most romantic one year of my life! Until this year of 2017! So now that we had established we wanted to be together we both realised we are in the age where we need to make things official. My boyfriend especially was really keen as his family wouldn’t let him rest in peace if he said otherwise. But it so happens that my family was in the mood of only the “otherwise” and there began this typical Indian melodrama.

So as the families fought in 2 different directions – one wanting immediate marriage and other wanting to pace it out, we both have been now stretched to last of wits! It’s been a year since this saga started with no end in sight yet! So I have decided to look at the good in life! Because that’s all I got in my hand right now! Until the universe decides to bless me again with that unrequited love I so felt last year! All I had to do then was enjoy the ride and completely trust in the universe. It took care of me as I’m guessing it is doing right now. So for the next weeks until things work in my favour I’m going to write some really endearing stories about all the lovely dear family that is part of my saga! No matter how life is today….I do really love them and they do really really love me!

Love and peace to all!! Hope I help myself get out of this rut with gratitude! 🙂

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The Power Within

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“Throw me to the wolves and I will return leading the pack!”                                                    ~~Anonymous~~

Not very long ago, I had a heart to heart with a friend which opened up my eyes. I was in a really happy phase of life then – perfect job, perfect love life, friends for life. I had the confidence that comes with being in the happy zone.

As I was sitting there, in the lobby of our hotel, waiting for my colleagues to join me, I felt like connecting to one particular friend of mine. We hadn’t spoken in a while, but she is one of those friends who you are always connected to even through long dry spells. After the general banter I soon realised that I didn’t feel the same energy coming from her. She is atleast 20 yrs my senior, working, independent lady, married and happy. Atleast that’s what I thought. On probing further little by little this amazingly beautiful person that I knew started to open up about the darkness in her life.

It was then that she told me that she had separated from her husband a few years ago. She lived alone with her daughter while the son lived with the father. She independently raised her daughter and slogged between jobs to put her daughter through school and college. But that’s not where her ordeal was bad. The worst part about all this was the ordeal her husband and son put her through day in and day out even after separating.

For my friend to separate from her husband was a very bold and risky step as she had no job, no source of income and no support system as her husband had pulverised her confidence over the years of their marriage.But once out she realised that wasn’t her only hardship. Whenever she tried to apply for a job her husband made sure it went away somehow. He bad mouthed her everywhere she tried to go – whether for job or to stay with her daughter. And worse for her a lot of men tried taking advantage of her in disguise of being her well wishers.

But today after years of taking abuse and living in the shadow of darkness, I don’t see a shade of grief. Everytime I see her, I see this beautiful woman, so full of hope and love! And I wondered out loud to her, “How do you manage to be so radiant and positive?” And her answer was quite simple really, she said,”I chose to feel radiant and positive! That’s the only choice I have in life.”

That summed up everything for me. It’s not your present life that decides your reality, it’s your outlook on life. What you feel within shows in every action of yours and sets ahead your future. So don’t let your present life decide what or who you are and where you want to go. Do things with love and be love.

Manifesting the Dream Job Offer!

“Success will be within your reach only when you start reaching out for it.”

I have been a huge fan of the Law of Attraction for a while now. It has got me through some of the most stickiest, toughest of times. The Law of Attraction entered my life in the time when I needed it the most; when I was vulnerable and lost. And there are many many stories I would enjoy sharing here today of those times. But we’ll keep that for another set of talks. Today I want to talk about how I have fun with the Law of Attraction now and manifest everything I want – just by believing that I already have it! That’s some really clean thought.

So one of them many fun things I have done with the help of LOA is manifest one of the best job offers till date. This was during the time I was feeling really bored with my job. I didn’t feel like there was any challenge left in the job, no spark. So I got to thinking – what if I got a job offer right now from one of the big firms of my industry? Sure doesn’t seem like a big thing to manifest but what you need to know is that at that time I had been working with my company only 7 Months! That’s it! That was my entire work experience. But that was the whole point of it. To imagine the unthinkable and make it happen!

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